Tuesday, December 27, 2005, 7:33 PM

cursed.blessed.loved.

I waited for someone to send in that parcel of 1 X 2 m.
But no,that never happened.
it was just hope awaiting to be killed.
and murdered,it was.

I have never meant to sound like one perpetually depressed girl.
its pretty sickening.even I myself cant stand it.
being so whiny,getting caught up with all those dark thoughts and to dampen all high spirits.
when you see how others seem so happy together,you cant help but wonder why arent you in her shoes?
of course,I do see quite a number of people in the same boat as me
- bordering on being more than just friends but less than lovers.(oh wells,but that isnt really the point here is it? ha)
you question if the reason was clearly hard to get.
I lay in doubt if you're just taking me for granted.
Let 'em say what they're gonna say but tonight,I just don't really care.
if there's really such a liking,wouldn't you want to see the other person?
there ain't such craving.such desire.such rashness.
all that asking out in reply of rejections.
I could do many for you.
selflessly,that is.
but can you say the same for yourself?
I'm looking for mutual,not one-sided.

help me tie up these loose knots,
so i can end off thankyou